I say hello to the old tree. A friendly, jolly face is looking back at me. It looks so happy. Its branches are wide and full, not like the skinny, bare limbs I saw on the other trees. "Thank you," I say. "Thank you for the peace. Thank you for being so…
Towards blue findings, I tap islands and footprints. The yellow is a little pale. I was told that the area is within the Great Lakes, but I think I was misinformed. I feel like I should be looking for a continent. I start to make a mental map of the pl…
I see tiny flying tents all over the place. Most of them are abandoned. Some are occupied. Some are full of people. All are full of life. It is morning, and the sun is coming up. I think to myself, “It’s time to get going.” I glance to the north, and t…
Learn new songs. A Day for swimming. Sewing curtains. Privatisms. There was a lot of them. She could not recall the exact time of her illness, or even the exact date, but she knew it was recent. She felt sicker than she had ever felt in her life. It…
Where am I here, breeze, time is happening now and I'm not even sure if I'm awake yet." "You're in a real space and time. This is where you are and where you have been, but not necessarily where you are now." "Where are you, breeze?" "I'm here, too. In…
The rabbit soul biz - A wash up It’s like the time my house became rat infested One by one Barely breathing I had a tenacious nature Swore I’d find a way And moved out in two weeks Maybe I could’ve held out But I had to know Who was eating my egg Now…
Inner maps and the felt sense of a quest in color: Why is the mind so starved of color? When I was a child, I remember my mother saying, “If you had eyes like a bird, you’d see all the colors of the rainbow.” I remember asking, “I have eyes. I see colo…
Are you there? Imagine your place in town, the shore line with the mountains just past that, sea to horizon. Listen to the wind, the waves, the great ocean song. Spend time in this, by the waters, in the mountains, out of doors. The smells of rich soil…
The gaps to climb through to a safe retreat. Only one option remains for us to save ourselves. We must sacrifice the life we've known, the life we've built for ourselves... "What do you mean?" "Don't worry. I'll get you to safety. I promise." "You don…
Working with the C.G.Jung concept of “The Shadow” , propagate self renovations
The blue valley and the pit of eternal torment. A small place built by a man who is still not satisfied. He has been out here for a couple of years, and is slowly starting to get the hang of things. He's had his doubts, and his doubts have only grown…
I catch a glimpse of you and life is a parade. The march of people dressed in dreamy colors, a live long eye treat. The lively bunch, sipping on cocktails, glistening in festive sun. There’s laughter and charm. You feel it for sure, and the feeling…
Waving. I call your name. I wonder why you don’t answer. I call your name, and walk down the street like I do every day. I call your name. I don’t expect you to answer. It’s getting dark. I can’t see details. I wonder what you’re thinking. I think I se…
Being parents with calm and serenity they followed even the lengthier parts of his teachings. They seemed to be enjoying themselves, which was something that always made me happy. “I thought you were going to tell me that you had to leave,” I told dad…
With them being around percievably exact moments of time were impossible. The Marni Nixon Problem Marni Nixon: "And you can never have an exact time because as time goes on, time goes by. So when you have two people that are in love with each other, y…
Often he ringed for some salt or onions but this was different. The one thing he could remember was the harshness of the air. The white ice and the crystal blue sky. The low shrill of the seagulls. The slight smell of salt in the air. The loneliness.…
"I did some new cards and invited him for the next week or so. " We are doing the same, ha! , but I have two weeks to get my cards done. I hope he comes so I can get some help. I hate to do cards alone. I need to ask you if you remember the cards I ma…
But Dad was about to pass his point of no return. "I'm going to take a shower," he said. "I'll be right back." "I'm going to get a drink of water," I said. "I'll be right back, too." "I'll be waiting," he said. I went to the kitchen, poured myself a gl…
Dad said it is almost always a mismatch but that's ok. It means the ankle is still broken. The old saying is "Flexibility is the key to success" - however, I don't believe that is always true. If you have ever tried to do a forward roll and were unable…
Ma said heros are boring. Best is be supporting. "Best is trying to be useful. Heroes are boring? I can think of a million different heroes that fit that definition. You're right. Heroes are boring. My definition of a hero is a person who does the rig…
Right. We used projections. He looked up at me, and I saw the excitement and the fear in his eyes. "Do you think they'll be here soon?" "I don't know." "What about mom and dad?" "I don't know." "Do you think they're okay?" "I don't know." He sat back…
Dad said continuity is for pussies. “I’m a real man, and I’ve got a real job,” he says. “That’s why I’m here. I’m not here to have a family. I’m here to live. I don’t have time to have a family.” He’s speaking as he spreads mayonnaise on his two-egg om…
Fckfrg morphed into the blue dream of a dolphin. Then he started singing about belonging, being different, and the cold side of campfires. "Concordia," rumbled. The big kangaroo was sliding over toward him on his backside. "Doon-doon. Let's all have…
I saw you rise again, but you were gone. “I was!” he laughed, “and that’s the most wonderful thing that ever happened to me.” “I thought I was the only one,” she answered. “And you are!” “I am?” “You are the only one, the whole world over, who has ever…
Ma felt responsible. She told us to put off masks. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to say that," she said. "But we've been talking about it. We decided to stop." "Did you tell him?" "No, he didn't want to know." We left the house. "I'm sorry," she said aga…
We realized the dying orchid had an influence. But we didn't know how far, and we didn't know the reason. Drake gave her a knowing smile. "You are a remarkable woman. You truly are." "Thank you, sir," she said, her voice soft. "You are a remarkable ma…
All that you said, all that you did Didn't tell me to be happy- that's why I gave up, I gave up good And played a game to find my troubles Can the world come closer and look down And see what these stumps are that I lie down in? I'm thinking of tho…
We don't have to worry about the future. We don't have to worry about anything. We're not in it. We are outside of time. We are above time." "But—" "No, no," dad interrupted, his voice growing more insistent, his tone growing more agitated. "No, you d…
I wonder. I keep wondering. But I can't decide. I know I should be honest. I know I should be upfront. I should tell you the truth. But, I can't do it. I'm not ready. Not yet. Because, I have no idea what to say. And I don't know if I can handle what…
We asked why fckfrg's habitat was a forgotten bus stop. How do you feel about being at a bus stop for over 20 years? I've been at this bus stop since I was a kid. It's a lovely place. I remember it when it was an ordinary bus stop. I remember it being…
We played fond memory time I saw you run, And I saw you fall, And I saw you rise again. You ran to the light. You fell into the dark. The world is round, And the world is wide, And there is no way to hide. When you live, you live to love, And when you…
We played "Quick 10 times I am" You should probably wait until you have more experience playing the game before doing the Quick 10 times I am challenge. In the mean time, try to practice a little bit everyday. I think you'll get a lot of use out of…
They did "Fritz and Louise" and I went for some soft drinks. It was too early to sit down, but they went to the cigar counter and got a Cuban. How'd you like the man? He was all right. He was a real piece of work. Why do you say that? He told me that h…
Ma was in trouble because she picked flowers on private property. The court was told that ma had gone to the garden of a house in the suburbs to pick flowers for dad. Ma had a dispute with the owner of the property, who was a gardener, over the flowers…
At home we put our dirty shoes outside. We only drink water from the tap. We don't eat dinner in front of the TV. We wash our hands before we eat. We eat at the table. We don't have "playdates" with friends. We play outside, not inside. We go to the p…
Dad wanted to visit Tucho's Rheinsberg. I was the only one who was interested. In the taxi, he kept repeating that I would have to be a brave boy, since we would never know what the place was like. I said, "How do you know I won't just run away?" "No…
Let's first try finding proper masks to cover our wound. "I'll go and get some." "No, no, no," I said. "I'll go." "You'll be fine," he said. "I'll be right back." I was still sitting on the bed, and I looked around for something to use as a bandage. …
Ma's was metamorph. She was with her flowers. I'd just returned to my cottage, my step became lighter, when I found a letter from someone called Bartram; he wanted me to give his mother a message from him. I went and found her outside, in the veranda.…
Some sort of memory built up. Ma said we're on track. I don't want to know. I'm going to be a baby for a while. I don't think she wants me to know, either. I was going to ask if I could help, but I guess she doesn't want that. She's going to be in cha…
I felt my part would be more of an intellectual. I was a smart kid. I read a lot. I was a writer, too. I wrote articles for the school newspaper. I wrote a series of poems about my mother, who was dying of cancer. I took my mother out for a drive. The…
Ma said "...when we leave the cave they think we're priests." "No, I'm just a tourist," I say. "You're not a tourist," says Dad. "You are a man of the great city." "You're a tourist," says Ma. "No, I'm not," I say. "Why don't you go with us to the moun…
Dad wanted to keep being recognizable for friends and family. That meant no more scraggly beard, but no shave, either. He looked like a teenager in high school. "He was my first boy," Ma told me. "I would've done anything for him." Ma would do anythin…
Good old hide and seek It's the perfect game for when you want to catch a break from bad weathers. The human mind has a curious habit of hiding things. Some of us hide things better than others. We hide from the police. We hide from our friends. We hi…
We invited a friend to tell us more about FckFrg. What is FckFrg? FckFrg is a Frg word that means “fuck the Frg”. It is a tongue-in-cheek term used to describe a person who is anti-Frg, and has a strong dislike for the Frg culture. Also, FckFrg is a…
A box in my kitchen. The kitchen was the heart of our home. For over twenty years, it was where we gathered for meals. It was the place we ate and relaxed. It was the place we loved. But, over time, we did more. The house became an office, I got busy.…
We found poerty to be the one religion we could possibly share. It was a long time ago, but I remember the first time I saw a picture of a naked woman. I was in the second grade, and I was sitting in the back of the classroom, reading a book. I was eng…
It cooled down a little and ears opened up. "I've never been to a rodeo, but I can imagine what it's like. It's all about the animals, I guess. I just don't get it." "I'm not sure I do either. But I like the idea of it. I like the idea of being around…
We played "One Word Poetry" A rhymeless poem can be read in any order. For example, it can start with the first word, or it can start with the last word. It can also be read in a circular manner, or in a linear manner. So, this was not a "real" poem,…
Night visions. We sang along. A simple tune, with a refrain. But the words were good. I'd never heard them before, but they fit perfectly. They felt good on my skin. I started singing along. The song grew. The song filled my heart. The song filled my l…
FckFrg's lesson on sound continuity and dad's try outs. The thing that struck me most about this is how little things were happening in it. There was just silence. And I like that. What I enjoyed was the silence. I like the fact that this was made by s…
He said it is about time. "Now that you are out of jail. Now that I can truly have you as mine, for eternity. We can be together forever," the woman, whose identity is being withheld by police, is heard saying in a phone call with a man at a strip clu…
Our skin was reflective and we found it easy to melt into any other object. It was easy to move from the shadows to the light and from the light to the shadows. When we stood on the edge of a highway we were not visible to the cars driving by. We were…
Ma said the next time she steals more of the deep blues. Some good times to look back on: The Queen of all Bullfrogs Danny Manning, my First Lieutenant, riding back to Cradle Creek. She said the girls of Lake Erie will look like sunshine at dawn. Sh…
The stool. My medical stool. Is the stool, the stool, a friend. Friend or enemy. Time for the decide. Is the time for the decide. The lack or lack the abundance. Couldn't escape. No matter where I flee. In front of and in back of. Consistency…
Are we standing? Are we sitting? Are we supposed to live in a birds house? Is this the worst thing that can happen to a human being? The answer to all of these questions is no. We are not supposed to live in a birds house. We are supposed to live in a…
Dealing with color movement we forgot time. 1. I was not expecting this to happen. 2. I’m in love with how this looks. I have a lot of faith in this. 3. This is my favorite. I like the warmth of the wall. 4. I think I like the look of this the most. …
Dad said he wants to be a sexy pearl diver. He says he wants to swim in the ocean. He just doesn't want to die doing it. But Mom said he'd die if he fell off the bed. Dad is not going to get out of this room. I think that. Mom calls us to supper. My s…
"I greet my future decisions.” “But there’s a good chance that you won’t make any decisions at all!” “So?” “So… I’m going to have to go on my own.” “Why?” “Because if you get killed in a battle and I don’t get a chance to have sex with you, yo…
fckprcs are a type of data mining that enables users to identify and use patterns that show a relationship between one or more characteristics and an outcome.
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